I'm sad today. I'm sad and confused and hurt and anguished and tormented with all these feelings and I don't know how to express myself. I'm lost between wanting to cry and wanting to sit down and do nothing. Instead I've lit candles, cleaned my house and I'm blaring my music. I wish I could cry because it would make me feel better. It would drain all the bad from me.
I cut this morning again. It's the same spot each time but I'm doing more and more cuts. It's three this time instead of two. And last time was two instead of one. They aren't big cuts, maybe 1/2 an inch. It didn't help me. It didn't release the demons. I hurt inside.
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