...Is not as easy as you'd think.
It's funny because when I quit my job last August I was telling people that when I started to look for a new job it would be easy because I'm the ideal candidate. I don't know if I meant specifically for vet medicine or any old job in particular but I gotta say, it is not easy!!!
I'm applying for jobs that I think won't follow me home at night. I've applied to Wal-Mart, Chapters, Shoppers Drug Mart, Home Depot, Loblaws, Leons and IKEA. I've applied for jobs as secretaries, receptionists, office assistants and nothing has come through. I get emails from Chapters and Home Depot saying I'm not what they are looking for. What the hell are they looking for!!! You go into those stores and you deal with 19 year old kids who have never had a job before and who can't answer your questions because they just don't give a damn. Do I have to apply with a blank resume? Do I have TOO MUCH experience? Give me an fing break!!!
I've only applied to one tech job with a vet that I worked with for 5 years. The problem is the clinic is bilingual and I don't speak a lick of french. Bums me out but there's nothing I can do. I think I'm going to start circulating resumes to all the local clinics.
Being off work has been enjoyable and frustrating all at the same time. It has given me a chance to recoup my losses and start to heal my mind. Compassion fatigue and work related anxiety are not easy things to overcome. I know if I had kept working I wouldn't have been able to deal. I was almost given an ultimatum at work - decide what I wanted to do (quite, cut down my hours or stay as is) in one week. I had no choice! I quite! I wasn't getting paid enough to work there full time anymore and I wasn't getting the recognition that I needed to be happy there. I was dealing with a boss who was very light on the positive feedback (or any feedback) and an office manager who liked to give negative feedback (possibly because it made her feel better about her position). I was panicking about going to work before I even got to work and once I was there I was afraid of doing anything at all for fear of being yelled at. It's not a healthy work environment.
When I quit they hired a technician who had gone to the same school as I but graduated two years after me. She had worked for an insurance company for two years and had less experience. They hired her for 2.50 more an hour than what I was getting paid!!! I had been there for six years and put my entire life into that clinic and they still didn't show me the respect and consideration that I needed. Just goes to show you what you actually mean to an employer. But this takes the entire cake and eats it! She only last 3 months. Rumour has it that she was fired for having a bad attitude (although that clinic really doesn't fire anyone). Right now they're still looking for a technician!!! I'm laughing inside but I'm still depressed and upset outside.
It's not worth it being upset over a job. I've learned to let go of my bitterness over how I was treated there. It still hurts but I'm moving on. My goal is to find a new job, in retail or in vet med, and become a new, stronger person. I will survive!
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